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  • Mood: Shame
You know, parents, teachers, and...everyone prepare you for failure, but no one prepares you for success; and I might sound like some whiny asshole when I say this, but...

I wasn't prepared. 

I didn't think people would like my work.

I didn't think people would even notice me.

I sure as hell didn't think I'd ever get recognized by a frickin goddess of the internet.

And maybe I'm making something out of nothing, but it happened.

And people saw.

And people are asking for things.

Which is great! I'm overjoyed you like my stuff!! It really is a dream come true!

But the thing about failure is no one expects anything of you.

If you're successful, you have people watching you. And it's so much pressure...

I wanna do good. You guys know I do. I feel like, the only way to explain this, is Rapunzel and Gothel's relationship. I'm Rapunzel AND Mother Gothel. I have goals and I keep bringing myself down-- it's not like I WANT to!! And every day, I try and try to get out of that attitude, and I just...I can't!

And then I feel worse, because I feel like you guys think I'm annoying or lazy or an attention whore or something!! [Believe me, if I were trying to get you're attention, you'd know. Look for the caps and fucking emoji barf] I feel like a broken record, and I just--

I gotta get my shit together.

I have promises I NEED. TO. FULFILL.

And, oh my gosh, these nice notes you guys leave me... like, I got the sweetest anons on tumblr the other day, and--

I always read those. I always read comments. Even if I don't get to them as soon as I'd like to, I ALWAYS read them. People who leave stuff like that are the reason I'm fighting this...whatever it is.

I tried talking to my family about it. Liz thinks it's depression, my family just said..god, they just--
They said 'that's what happens'. You know what, like I said, they prepare me for failure.

I used to not be afraid to fail.

I don't want to be afraid of drawing! I love it!! I love you guys!! I love the friendships I've made, I love the fact that the people I support are growing, and I get to be a part of that!

But right now, I'm falling behind.



And... I think the best thing right now...is to take an indefinite haitus.



Yes! I know you requested art, I KNOW THAT. Don't you think it kills me knowing that I let you down?! Yes, I know October was supposed to be this big thing and I'd come back hunky-dory-- but my stress got fucking worse, and I can't control it and if I keep going like this, I'll lose the one thing I love most, and I can't live like that!!

Guys, please don't hate me. I'm..already crying and I cant' fucking type right.

Look. Think of it this way. I WILL STILL GET TO EVERY COMMISSION, EVERY REQUEST, EVERY ADOPT, EVERY SKETCH, AND EVERY COMMENT. I WILL STILL ADORE EVERY NEW PIECE YOU ARTISTS DISH OUT. I WILL GET TO EVERY. LAST. ONE. Think of me as the Eren Jaeger of deviantart-- I'm angry, passionate, I'm a HUGE crybaby, and when I say that I'm gonna do something, I DO IT.

Who knows? This hiatus could only last a week, maybe a day. I could come back in five minutes. Or, it could take till December. Worst case scenario, it takes till December, and that's when we have half off on commissions!! See? It's not that bad! Come on, say it with me, so I don't start freaking out and cruyin again. I'm really trying to stay positive, right now. I have to.



Ok.

Ok. I'm so sorry I ranted again and I keep bugguing you with my shit, but the last thing I want is to leave you guys in the dark. They always say to talk about when you're not ok, and I am not ok. I love you guys so much I can't 

Ok. I have to do this. This...feeling right here has been eating and eating at me like nobody's business. It's either this hiatus, or...I feel like I'm gonna cave. I have to do this. I love you guys, and I'm so sorry!! Please, please don't hate me.

I consider this a failure, cus I'm not going to get stuff out to you guys as soon as I'd hoped.



But I will come back. I promise. I'm gonna get my shit together.

I love you all.
  • Mood: Horror
  • Listening to: Monster Mash
  • Reading: Fanfictions. Yea.
  • Eating: BRRRAAAIINNNNNNSSSS
  • Drinking: BBBBLLLOOOOOOODDDD
Hey, guys!! How's your October been so far? :D Mine's been....intense. Hahah definitely scary! A good scary though! [what] But yes! As the title says....IT'S CONTEST TIME!!

Now, I wanted to start it in the middle of the month, because I wanted it to be a small contest, since it is my first one. But that doesn't mean we still can't have tons of fun!! So! Without further ado... [hah, doo.]



Our contest theme is...

💀💀💀ZAMBIES💀💀💀

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YESSSSSSSS!!!! Zambies!! And why not?!? It's Halloween!!! Let's get scary!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE ZAMBIES.



💀💀💀all mediums accepted💀💀💀

No matter what it is, be it traditional art, digital art, photography, literature-- paint me a picture of YOUR OC as a zambie.

💀💀💀Yes, IT HAS TO BE YOUR OC💀💀💀

Have fun! Do whatever you like! Tell a story! Maybe it's a cute zambie, maybe it's a scary one, maybe they aren't aware they're a zambie! Did they get bit? We're they infected? Zambie like Walking Dead? Like The Last of Us? Like 28 Days Later? Whatever you want! The choice is yours-- have fun with it! It's HALLOWEEN!!! Let's have some fun!



💀💀💀PRIZES💀💀💀

Each contestant will have their Zambie!OC drawn by me and put in a huge drawing with the other contestants Zambie!OCs along with my own. [i will give credit for who's OC belongs to who] Your name and icon will also be featured in the description AND my DA journal for others to check out! So why not join?? free DA feature!! It's gonna be sick! XD

Now, if you place...

💀💀💀FIRST PLACE💀💀💀

💀 50 points
💀 Free full colored full commission
💀 Free full colored chibi
💀 your Z!OC and three other of your pieces will be featured on my Tumblr and Twitter
[with credits so other people can check your work out!]

💀💀💀SECOND PLACE💀💀💀

💀 25 points
💀 CHOICE of free full colored full commission OR two free full colored chibi commissions
💀 your Z!OC and three other of your pieces will be featured on my Tumblr and Twitter
[with credits so other people can check your work out!]

💀💀💀THIRD PLACE💀💀💀

💀 15 points
💀 Free full colored chibi commission
💀 your Z!OC and three other of your pieces will be featured on my Tumblr and Twitter
[with credits so other people can check your work out!]

💀💀💀your free commissions can have as many add on characters as you like--it's free!!💀💀💀

💀💀💀FINALISTS💀💀💀

Will be featured on my Tumblr and Twitter! [with credits so others can check your work out!]



💀💀💀RULES💀💀💀

💀 The theme HAS TO BE ZAMBIES.
Be creative! Tell a story! Make me love that OC as much as you do!

💀 You HAVE TO USE YOUR OC.
No fanart. Hey, no worries! If this goes well, we'll do plenty more fanart based contests!
Right now, I want to see your OC! Let's put some shameless self promotion out there!!

💀 ALL MEDIUMS ACCEPTED.
Who am I to say what the best way to present YOUR zambie is? Run wild! Do whatever you want to show who your OC is! It's zambie time!!! [max word limit, for literature, is 1,500 word count]

💀 ENTER AS MANY TIMES AS YOU LIKE.
Yes! You can have more than one entry! However, only one of those entries will be used for the huge zambie piece-- I think that's fair. But yea! Enter as many pieces as you want! Go crazy! The more, the scarier!

💀 ???
I don't know how to say this one. I want all entries to be specifically for this contest. NO OLD WORKS. No matter what you submit, it has to be for this contest. Does that sound right?

💀 YOU MUST SEND ME A LINK TO YOUR ENTRY. 
I would prefer if you sent it via a note, but you can comment the link, email it to me, whatever. But you have to give me the link. I gotta put it in a folder, so that I know who's got who and whatnot. Very important.



💀💀💀DEADLINE💀💀💀

The deadline for submissions is MIDNIGHT OCTOBER 31. No exceptions.

Judging will take 3 days.

And hey! Don't sweat it! It's a small contest! Have fun!!



💀💀💀JUDGING💀💀💀

I found three awesome people to help me out!

💀 :iconprincessberri:       💀 :icondoodlingmelody:       💀 :iconmissesunlucky:

We will judge each work within its category first, focusing on technique, application to theme, and ability to convey a story. Within the category means, we only judge digital works against digital works, photography vs photography, and so forth.

From there, we will find our finalists! Those finalists will be judged a second time, against one another [this sounds so intense, now that I write it haha] and winners will be chosen!



Wooo!! Let's have fun! I can't wait to see what you guys come up with!!!! Let's gooooo!!!
  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: Capital Kings
  • Eating: SWEETS [i wish]
Ok, so it's not Halloween yet, but it is October, and that means...

Lily's Lazy Time!!!

Yes! As of this month, I will not be accepting new commissions, however, I will still be finishing up the commissions I've already recieved, as well as more free adopts!! So, Hakuna Matata!

I really want to make the most of this month and catch up on all my messages. Yes. All of them. Especially the art ones-- I haven't been able to look at everyone's drawings in FOREVER!! I wanna see how well YOU guys have been doing! Plus, it just makes my day. X3

Also! I'll be starting a few of my own personal projects that I've been meaning to work on. Dun-dun-duuuuuuun.... Exciting!

One more thing! I've decided that I WILL HOLD A CONTEST THIS MONTH!! So, that's gonna be super fun!! Message me if you want to help out! [be a judge, donate some points, whatever!] I think it'll be fun!! :D Come on, guys!! Let's do it!!

...I think thats it. Alright! Happy October!!
  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: Capital Kings
  • Eating: SWEETS [i wish]
Hey!! First of all, can I just say thank you for all the commissions requests?? Guys, you are all just so awesome. 💜 Also, I think I got a couple of notes worried about payment? Look, guys the first commish is always free, but if you still want to do something, I do trades!! :D I don't bite, guys. [unless you're a guy and, you know. //shot] anyway, I know I need to make new free adopts batches, so don't worry, I'm totally on that, too.

One thing I do want to mention, though [this journal has a lot of points, so], is that although I love doing commissions, I really want to try and get some of my original work out, so I have a plan.

***For the whole month of October, I'm going to be selfish and turn off doing commissions. But!! For the whole month of December, COMMISSIONS WILL BE HALF PRICED, INCLUDING CASH. Also, I might hold a secret Santa!! So, that'll be fun!

And, guys, although I love doing the points thing, I don't really use points. The only reason I allow points purchase is because I know a lot of folks on deviantart use them. If anything, I use points for small adopts or to help other artists out-- oh! I could use them to hold a contest!! Oh, that'll be fun!! We could do that in October, when I'm not doing commissions anyway, so I'll be able to focus on that!! What do you guys think?

Oh! Anyway, the real reason I opened commissions is I'm trying to save up to buy a laptop. I know, I know. I hate asking for money, and I'm sorry, but it gets really hard doing EVERYTHING from my iPad. It sucks! I worked as a part time janitor to get this thing, and it works great, but I can't do it all on here, you know? iPads are meant for the stuff you transfer from your computer to on the go. I don't have enough room for a full computer, and a laptop is just so much cheaper and easier to obtain. Look, I know that it seems like I keep moving from one quick fix to the next, but until I get into a situation where I can actually obtain expensive high tech equipment, haha I gotta use what I can. If I wait until I get those high tech things, it'll be too late.

So, I hope I don't seem greedy or that I'm being one of those stupid advertisers or anything, but please please please consider paying cash for my commissions. I know it's a lot.

ok, moving on, cus I feel like I'm being needy. I might start animations soon.

just gonna say that. >:]

Probably gonna start when I have free time in October.

so...yea

One more thing: I got a twitter! Yea, literally the only reason was cus PewDiePie took off comments and now answers people's tweets instead. Yea, like I'm gonna miss out on that. So, yea! If you want more of me on your screen, follow me here!
Don't forget, I also have a tumblr!

...i think that's it. Thanks again, guys for all your kindness and patience and-- ohh!!!

I HAVE 200 FOLLOWERS!!! GUYS, 200!!!!! GUYSSSS

SO I WANNA CELEBRATE!! [why am I in caps?] I was trying to figure out a way to celebrate, but I don't know. Someone suggested a short animation, [i asked the same question on tumblr], someone else said a giveaway. I thought I'd ask here just for good measure. I mean, this is where it all started, you know?? So, your opinions matter most to me. What do YOU guys want?

let me know, and we can figure something out! :3

ok, that's it. LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU💜💜💜
  • Mood: Shame
You know, parents, teachers, and...everyone prepare you for failure, but no one prepares you for success; and I might sound like some whiny asshole when I say this, but...

I wasn't prepared. 

I didn't think people would like my work.

I didn't think people would even notice me.

I sure as hell didn't think I'd ever get recognized by a frickin goddess of the internet.

And maybe I'm making something out of nothing, but it happened.

And people saw.

And people are asking for things.

Which is great! I'm overjoyed you like my stuff!! It really is a dream come true!

But the thing about failure is no one expects anything of you.

If you're successful, you have people watching you. And it's so much pressure...

I wanna do good. You guys know I do. I feel like, the only way to explain this, is Rapunzel and Gothel's relationship. I'm Rapunzel AND Mother Gothel. I have goals and I keep bringing myself down-- it's not like I WANT to!! And every day, I try and try to get out of that attitude, and I just...I can't!

And then I feel worse, because I feel like you guys think I'm annoying or lazy or an attention whore or something!! [Believe me, if I were trying to get you're attention, you'd know. Look for the caps and fucking emoji barf] I feel like a broken record, and I just--

I gotta get my shit together.

I have promises I NEED. TO. FULFILL.

And, oh my gosh, these nice notes you guys leave me... like, I got the sweetest anons on tumblr the other day, and--

I always read those. I always read comments. Even if I don't get to them as soon as I'd like to, I ALWAYS read them. People who leave stuff like that are the reason I'm fighting this...whatever it is.

I tried talking to my family about it. Liz thinks it's depression, my family just said..god, they just--
They said 'that's what happens'. You know what, like I said, they prepare me for failure.

I used to not be afraid to fail.

I don't want to be afraid of drawing! I love it!! I love you guys!! I love the friendships I've made, I love the fact that the people I support are growing, and I get to be a part of that!

But right now, I'm falling behind.



And... I think the best thing right now...is to take an indefinite haitus.



Yes! I know you requested art, I KNOW THAT. Don't you think it kills me knowing that I let you down?! Yes, I know October was supposed to be this big thing and I'd come back hunky-dory-- but my stress got fucking worse, and I can't control it and if I keep going like this, I'll lose the one thing I love most, and I can't live like that!!

Guys, please don't hate me. I'm..already crying and I cant' fucking type right.

Look. Think of it this way. I WILL STILL GET TO EVERY COMMISSION, EVERY REQUEST, EVERY ADOPT, EVERY SKETCH, AND EVERY COMMENT. I WILL STILL ADORE EVERY NEW PIECE YOU ARTISTS DISH OUT. I WILL GET TO EVERY. LAST. ONE. Think of me as the Eren Jaeger of deviantart-- I'm angry, passionate, I'm a HUGE crybaby, and when I say that I'm gonna do something, I DO IT.

Who knows? This hiatus could only last a week, maybe a day. I could come back in five minutes. Or, it could take till December. Worst case scenario, it takes till December, and that's when we have half off on commissions!! See? It's not that bad! Come on, say it with me, so I don't start freaking out and cruyin again. I'm really trying to stay positive, right now. I have to.



Ok.

Ok. I'm so sorry I ranted again and I keep bugguing you with my shit, but the last thing I want is to leave you guys in the dark. They always say to talk about when you're not ok, and I am not ok. I love you guys so much I can't 

Ok. I have to do this. This...feeling right here has been eating and eating at me like nobody's business. It's either this hiatus, or...I feel like I'm gonna cave. I have to do this. I love you guys, and I'm so sorry!! Please, please don't hate me.

I consider this a failure, cus I'm not going to get stuff out to you guys as soon as I'd hoped.



But I will come back. I promise. I'm gonna get my shit together.

I love you all.

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LillianAStorm
Lily Storme
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Hi kids, welcome to my deviantART page! My name is Lily, and I am not a wierdo! :D Thanks for stoppin' by!!

Psst! Don't forget to check out my tumblr! Sometimes I post art exclusively there! [sketches, WIPs, and sometimes funny stuff! ...sometimes.]

Also, if you have any questions about commissions, projects, or you just want to talk, send me a message, or an email at /lillianastorme@gmail.com
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:icondoodlingmelody:
DoodlingMelody Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist General Artist
happy birthday :D !!!!! Hug Have your cake and eat it too 
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:iconpinkpanda13:
pinkpanda13 Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for Following, Lilian! Adorable Girl Anime Emoji (My kawaii plushie) [V6] 
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:iconlillianastorm:
LillianAStorm Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey totally! :D Love ILY, DUDE
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:iconpinkpanda13:
pinkpanda13 Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I LUB CHU TOO. Panda Emoji-07 (Snuggy) [V1] 
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:iconrenzodmtnamine:
RenzoDMTNamine Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014  New member Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello Lilian!!! As I saw that you could take request so, can I umm. How do I say this? Can you animate a video like what you did on CutiePie Marzia's "Land of the Dolls" thing? But, if you can I would like to thank you so much!!! 

P.S
If you will accept making it, The style will be "Compiled Memories vol. 1" (Search in youtube or other ways search "Mad Father anime" and look for Compiled Memories Vol. 1) Thank You Lilian... P.S. like your drawings so much
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:iconkayslapmeh:
KaySlapMeh Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi there! Do you take requests?
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:iconlillianastorm:
LillianAStorm Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I do!! I do commissions, for either points or cash, and sometimes I do free sketch requests on my tumblr! :3

Was there something you'd like? :3
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:iconkayslapmeh:
KaySlapMeh Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't have a Tumblr. D: 

I know so many people have been asking, but I saw your animation on Marzia's channel and thought it looked really cute and awesome.

How many points do you want for an animation (maybe 30 sec - 1 min in length)?
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LillianAStorm Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw, that's ok! :3 I don't do too much on there anyway, lol It's mostly me just derpin' around haha

and thank you!!!! I'm so glad you liked it!!! 💜💜💜

i actually haven't decided yet. I'll probably update my information this coming month. :3 Keep an eye out!
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RanOfdensen Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014
Boop! How ya doin' girly?
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